Note: It is a fictional love story. Any similarity to actual people or events is purely coincidental.
“Did you pay 500 bucks
to varnish my toe nails”? Shabana cavilled at Ajit who continued painting her
nails in crimson---blissfully unaware of the precious time passing by. Or the noise
that Shabana created each time she changed positions on her rickety bed. The sound
was jarring but not discomforting, as compared to the moaning music from the
nights when the bed rocked and groaned.
Ajit’s warm stroking
and playful precision while painting her nails amused Shabana. But as a
mechanic, did he also fix those expensive cars with so much pain? Perhaps, it
was Ajit’s nature to get submerged in each job he undertook. From toiling at Al
Jawahar’s car workshop for a paltry daily wage of Rs 350 to splurging his money on
the doe-eyed Shabana---Jamilabai’s most sensual, saleable commodity, Ajit was living
and lusting for Shabana, all the time.
It was in this ramshackle
room that the love story of Shabana and Ajit blossomed. In this cubbyhole – he
wove many rose-tinted dreams. He talked conversion to marry her; she hushed him up fearing Jalal – the beefy pimp of the Sheesha brothel. Jalal only knew one
relationship between man and woman and that was not of a man and wife. It was
in this room that Ajit ran his scabrous fingers through Shabana’s wavy hair – stopping
occasionally to unravel her knots. He loved dabbing gulab ittar on her nape – perhaps as a frustrated desire to stub
out the heady odour in the room, of burnt cigarettes, cheap liquor and sweaty
secretions.
As usual, the clock
would continue to tick. And exactly after two hours, Jalal would come knocking.
It would not just be a mild ‘time-out’ reminder – it would be a thunderous
warning teamed with constant door slapping and throaty abuses. Jalal was wary
of love-struck Ajit. He could foresee that he wanted to free Jamila’s prettiest
bird. But more than often, Jamila had declared that she could clip the wings of
her caged bird, if things got out of hand.
Ajit would always
get his beloved a gift – a string of mogra
flowers, tinkling anklets or a garish nail paint. The fact that he was 26 and
she was two years elder did not lend any maturity to their romance. He was
smitten, she was practical! Both
deeply craved a home near that lotus pond in Raiganj, Kolkata, where they
hailed from.
It was by a quirk of
fate that Shabana’s mother was pushed into the rough sex trade thriving in
Sonagachi -- the largest red light district in Kolkata. At 12, Shabana only dreamt of sharpened school pencils, neat kurtas and a gleaming future. But the agent
promised more than all this to Shabana’s widowed mother. She desperately packed
dhotis, left her sons with the grandmother
and arrived in the ironic City of Joy. Back in Raiganj, few huts away, Ajit’s
brother had also planned to rope him in odd jobs in Kolkata. Boys in the family
always meant more working hands. So it was no wonder, Ajit dropped out of class
five and joined hands to make ends meet.
Despite being hand
to mouth, Ajit scrimped and saved to pay Jamilabai for his meetings with
Shabana. They would sip cola, savour hot jalebis
and sometimes make love. Often, they would share a joke about how his grease
paint stained her slender thighs, and how he smelt of her coconut hair oil. This
was their world – quiet and pure -- away from the teeming client-sex worker life
of Sonagachi. Police raids, NGO activists and trips to abortion clinics –
Shabana had seen it all at an early age.
But this new breeze of love made her forget who she was, at least temporarily.
There was something
ominous about that morning. To begin with, Shabana received the news of
Shamsher’s death. Shamsher was a street dog that lived like a family member in Gali
no. 13, near Jamila’s den. Last night, it got crushed under a speeding tempo.
Secondly, in the morning Jamila introduced Shabana to Choti – the new girl who
would stay at the Sheesha and become a brothel blossom, like her. Clad in a
worn-our polka-dotted frock, Choti looked every inch a plastic doll with blank,
wide eyes. She looked not more than eight. Devastated by the death of the dog
and the introduction of this new kid, Shabana fought back her tears.
Helplessly, she teetered her way out of the house on the pretext of buying
vegetables.
The streets wore a
festive look ahead of Durga Puja. The varied hues of vermillion made her forget
the blood she had seen in the morning. At the junction, where hawkers laid out
their vegetable carts, Shabana met Pooja -- the most desirable girl of Gali no
4. Soon the girls began discussing Puja Melas, the soaring Rohu prices and new Bengali
movies.
On their way back,
they joked about how Pooja had always spurned advances of Jalal and how he
never relented. Since the skies were turning overcast, Shabana told herself
that even if she got drenched, she wouldn’t mind it. As she continued to think
of the oncoming downpour, Pooja rattled off on the phone to a distant aunt. But
suddenly, the motor-mouth felt a stinging pain in her arm. It took her a moment
to realise that the vegetables were strewn about and Shabana was sitting on her
knees, cupping her face and screaming in pain – loud enough to jolt the sky.
It was not
established why Shabana was attacked with acid. Onlookers who rushed her to the
hospital murmured that it was Bilal, the notorious petty thief who hurled a
vial of acid on her. Later, it was understood that Shabana paid for a case of
mistaken identity. Pooja was his target. But she escaped with minor burns. Soon
after, cops investigated to reveal that Bilal was hired by Chandan, Pooja’s
jilted lover. She had not only turned down his proposal but had also once
derided his tailoring shop.
Forty days passed by
and if pain could be measured – only Shabana could tell if it had subsided. On
the government hospital bed, a sedated Shabana continued to suffer in pain –
with her faint voice choking at long intervals. The two surgeries restructured
her seared face to some extent but the event scarred her soul for life. The
attack turned her imperfect world upside down. Her wavy hair was now a patchy
scalp, long eyelashes reduced to ashes and her radiant face resembled beaten,
burnt over-dyed hide.
Ten days after the
horrific attack, Jamilabai had thrown up outside the hospital on seeing Shabana.
Pooja was too numb to step out of Gali no 4. And Ajit’s dreams of a tranquil
marital life with Shabana near the lotus pond had been charred. When he first
heard the shocking news, he felt as if someone had set him on fire. Rage,
exasperation and helplessness – the demons of hell gripped and consumed him.
Ajit didn’t leave
Shabana’s side even for a minute. He would gaze at her traumatic condition from
the glass in the burns unit. Though visitors were not allowed in the room, Mrs Kaura,
chairman of the Acid Survivors Foundation, an advocacy group for victims came
visiting. She consoled Shabana like a mother, and promised her medical support,
rehabilitation and employment at a small organized sector. Her comforting words
were balmy for Shabana. She suddenly saw a gleam of hope from the crack of her right eye, which still
had some vision left.
It was a long wait of
forty days before Ajit was allowed to take charge of Shabana. As a ritual he
would change her clothes, clean her with anti-bacterial swabs and feed her
semi-solids, all this with the same patience he fondled her, when the days were
bright and happy.
Ajit married Shabana
in a quiet Hindu-Bengali ceremony. The bride wore a jasper red saree and
tightly held on to her pallu. She didn’t
want to frighten his relatives. He had already taken a big decision to marry
her and Shabana was obviously apprehensive. She had said, “My life has an ugly
past and it will only give you an ugly future.” To this, Ajit had replied,
“Your past gives me courage and the prospects of a future with you give me
hope. I want a life where we can savour jalebis
and make babies – your face has nothing to do with this.”
Normal life was
limping back. Shabana found solace in cooking for her husband and taking care
of the house. Ajit worked doubly hard to save for his wife. They again found
happiness – in midnight radio, fish curry and in each other. Shabana shirked
crowded places and Ajit ensured he got her vegetables and groceries. The bright
sun of hope was shining again till one afternoon Shridhar came knocking.
“Boudi, boudi… open the door….”. “What is it?” Shabana asked, tightly holding
the edge of her dupatta covering her burnt face. “Boudi…Dada…Dada….Dada has
killed Bilal”, Shridhar said in a deafening voice.
Shabana stood there
lifeless. A part of her died instantly on hearing the news. Police had already
arrested Ajit with the weapon of crime. Bilal had gone underground after the
attack and Chandan had been imprisoned. It was on this fateful day when Bilal
come out of his hole only to be spotted by Ajit.
He didn’t even bat an eyelid before hammering Bilal’s head with a spanner he used
to fix a client’s car.
Behind bars, Ajit
confessed to Shabana, “If I had my way, I would have emptied pails of sulphuric
acid on Bilal. How could I spare that bast**** who ruined your life.” Shabana
shuddered at his tirade. She sobbed and sobbed till her eyes burnt. She clasped
his hands tightly. She could not afford to lose him now at this juncture of
life. Ajit calmed her down and said, “Meet Kaura ma’am. She will give you
employment and a future.” “But why did you have to kill him Ajit --- now…now…..why.”
Shabana’s voice choked again.
Shabana’s new life
was as banal as her new job. Rolling hundreds of papads every day gave her a living but not a reason to laugh. The
fact that everybody stared at her disfigured face didn’t bother her anymore. Endlessly,
she dreamt of Ajit’s return. She hoped to build a small concrete house near the
lotus pond in Raiganj. She stroked her abdomen to calm down the distressed
small life quivering inside her. She hoped to savour jalebis and make babies with Ajit. She decided to live again.
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